Friday, January 25, 2019

Emotional Sobriety


There are two types of sobriety; physical and emotional. Physical sobriety must come first for emotional sobriety to even be possible.


One of the most difficult factors in early recovery is dealing with our feelings. This is especially true for those of us who have used and abused various substances in an effort to become and remain “Comfortably Numb” as much as possible.

Then there are those of us who also sought out comfort in an assortment of relationships. Very few of them lasted more than a year or two, and most all of them were fellow substance abusers and/or relationship addicts as we were.

Whatever our chronological age, emotionally we were behaving like immature, petulant adolescents. We only thought we were mature adults. Our actions proved otherwise, as we sought to get for ourselves more than giving to others. When we did give, our giving was conditional and limited. Our desire to give of ourselves was rooted mainly in what we wanted and hoped to get in return. We liked to believe that we were being generous and kind-hearted, but in all truth, we were self-centered and self-seeking most of the time.

Without even realizing it, we were living in full-blown denial about ourselves and the world we lived in. Granted, we most-likely didn’t start out that way. It just sort of happened as a result of events that took place in our life. Someone hurt us and we didn’t understand why. Or maybe we inadvertently (or perhaps intentionally) did or said something to or about someone that was hurtful. We were or became overly sensitive as a result. We didn’t know how to make things right. Or perhaps we tried but it didn’t work for whatever reason. So we became hardened, emotionally. We built emotional barriers in an effort to avoid being hurt like that again. We became harsh and sometimes cruel towards others who probably didn’t deserve it.

We developed unhealthy ways of dealing with stressful people, places, and situations, because we didn’t how to properly deal with our feelings (emotions). We became fearful that others would discover how inept, incompetent and helpless we felt. So we came up with ways to mask our fears and insecurities. And when we couldn’t hide from them ourselves and they became too much to deal with, we “acted-out” in ways harmful to ourselves and those around us. Since we didn’t know how to cope with our feelings, we began to use, people, places, and situations in an abusive and harmful manner; seeking to blot-out – however temporary – our fears and emotions.
In psychology, coping means to invest own conscious effort, to solve personal and interpersonal problems, in order to try to master, minimize or tolerate stress and conflict. The psychological coping mechanisms are commonly termed coping strategies or coping skills. Wikipedia 
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THE CYCLE OF ADDICTION:
1. PAIN
2. REACHING OUT – to an addictive agent, such as work, food, sex, alcohol, or dependent relationships to salve our pain.
3. TEMPORARY ANAESTHESIA (Comfortably Numb)
4. NEGATIVE CONSEQUENCES
5. SHAME AND GUILT – which result in more pain or low self-esteem.

In Alcoholics Anonymous’ suggested program of recovery, a method is given to help those caught up in their denial, so that they may overcome their fears and insecurities.


By taking a look at our personal history in a manner that reveals our past behavior issues and difficulties, we can put an end to the seemingly endless vicious cycle and learn new ways to deal with and work through situations that used to paralyze us with fear and loathing!

But we cannot do it alone. We need to work with someone else, preferably someone who knows and understands the process of recovery from personal experience. In so doing, the experienced individual can help us get past our denial and help us see clearly the true nature of our weaknesses and help us identify our strengths. 

With a clear and honest evaluation of ourselves, we can then move forward and grow secure in our new-found freedom from doubt and shame. We can look ourselves in the mirror and smile once again. We can look others in the eye, with a better understanding of ourselves and the world in which we live. 

No longer do we carry the weight of the world on our shoulders, because we are beginning to understand that we no longer have a need to control every circumstance and situation that arises. We are now free to be ourselves and can accept ourselves and others as flawed, imperfect individuals. 

We now understand that everyone is on a journey and it is not our responsibility to ensure that everything fits together according to our or someone else’s grand design. We begin to understand that we can relax and leave the results in the capable hands of an all-powerful and all-loving Creator, who actually knows what is best for each and every one of us. We can live in the peace and serenity that we always desired but never thought was possible for us to actually experience – day in and day out.

But we can only do this as long as we continue to practice all the principles contained within the steps of the suggested program of recovery, as laid out for us by the co-founders and pioneers of what is now known as Alcoholics Anonymous.

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