Monday, September 30, 2019

Lack of discipline


"A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls." -- Proverbs 25:28 ESV



One day, while listening to people share their thoughts in a recovery meeting, my mind wandered. Perhaps it was something someone said. The topic of the meeting was about being powerless to control our drinking and our need to surrender to a power greater than ourselves.

As my mind wandered, the analogy of a cowboy riding a bucking bronco came to mind. That was how I had been living my life -- like a wild mustang. The more people rode my back about toeing the line, the more I kicked up my heels against the restraints and confines of living the way people insisted I should live.

Other times I was the cowboy, trying to prove I could ride that wild mustang of life without getting thrown off. Of course, it was impossible for me to not get thrown off the wild horse of self-will. Just like the cowboys of and wild mustangs of old, something had to give. No matter how many times I tried to prove I could ride with the best of them, I always paid the price. Usually, that price was more than I could cover, and like the wild mustang, I was finally broken. 

In recovery, we call that reaching the end of our self. We reach the point when we grow tired of kicking and fighting against everything and everyone. We come to realize that if we don't surrender to the cowboy that wants to be our friend and teach us how we can be useful, our life will remain empty and meaningless. Yet as soon as we do surrender, we begin to experience and enjoy all the good best that our master has in store for us. We start to see that HIS WAY is so much better than our way ever could be. Then and only then, does our life begin to have real meaning, purpose, and value. Then and only then, do we seek to live for HIM, instead of ourselves.

"We alcoholics are undisciplined. So we let God discipline us in the simple way we have just outlined." --Alcoholics Anonymous, page 88

     If you think you are an atheist, an agnostic, a skeptic, or have any other form of intellectual pride which keeps you from accepting what is in this book, I feel sorry for you. If you still think you are strong enough to beat the game alone, that is your affair. But if you really and truly want to quit drinking liquor for good and all, and sincerely feel that you must have some help, we know that we have an answer for you. It never fails, if you go about it with one half the zeal you have been in the habit of showing when you were getting another drink.
    Your Heavenly Father will never let you down! 
Alcoholics Anonymous co-founder, Dr. Bob Smith